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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

13.06.2025 00:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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I was 9 years of age.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

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Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I think the readers, may guess!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

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I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I did it because my mum asked me too!

(And it was in our own minds.)

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When she asked me how she looked .

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

If I get served by someone else's papers, am I legally required to inform the person that they got served, or the court that they served the wrong person?

Put me off passion for life!!

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I gave him everything. He said he loved me. Why?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I said to her

Are rich people harder workers than poor people as a whole?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He resisted the act ,that day.

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I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I have no regrets .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

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She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Im still living with it.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Especially a lifetime of it.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

And i lived it daily.

But it wasn’t much.

Was to survive, this bastard.

I don,t even have a pension.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I couldn’t, believe it.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I waited trembling.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

So, i spoilt her more .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Who then, do I blame.?

I will be 64.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

But, we were locked up after school.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

This is soul school!.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Ive learnt so much.

My family never makes their pension either.

He knew the spot.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I was scared of men, in general

Would this be the day?

She found it foreign!.

She was in good health!

All the time i was locked up.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She married twice! .

I write beautiful poetry .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

It was going to be , some day.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

I was very sick at this time too.

I never cut or harmed myself..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

What did i know ?

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

But ive been too sick for many years..

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

Why did i forgive my father ?

We all went to grammer schools

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

As i do to all so called friends.?

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

One cannot live in the past .

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She loved him until the end.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She wouldn,t have been !

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

My life is so biszare .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

So whats the point in blame.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was seconnd youngest,

We were not on the streets..

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Comes on , in middle age.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!